9/1

its jz like a normal monday
i gt no place to go.all fren working
jz cn stay at home n on9 whole day
bt a call frm fren ask me to go for steamboat
jing huo guo bside new world park
went there jz for a chat wif them cz i gt work
bt i sat down n look back.its my fren ms J
wad a coincidence.go downtown still met her fren
chat wif them around 5minutes then ms J call me
actually i knew wad will happen next
i was so afraid to go further
at beginning i was hoping for a short talk
bt end up sat down n chat wif her n her frens
we talk lots lots lots of my prob
i enjoy the talk.eventhough i dn noe her frens LOL
voice in my heart.d secret.thing i done for her.hw i hurt myself
they seems to guess corret all of it?omg scary wey
dis chat really did gv me hard feeling.sadness
bt at last they do make me feel i should let go
thx ms J.for ur advice n wad u told me all of it
another person dat gt folow my blog.im happy xD
wao my family prob u knew dat too.surprised me o.O
i get wad u mean.n i shouldn't disturb her
end up work time really get emo agn.hahahaha

work time she msg me jz to return her smtg
its like so damn creepy aft i hv a hard chat
u msg me.making me hard to continue my night
i ask her.is it being a normal fren really let u suffer
n i get d ans.nw i noe it.i wont disturb u anymore
i really wishing so hard for ur happiness wif him
i wn to be a normal fren wif u.nt bcz i wn u back
i jz wn to care u as a fren.noe bout hws ur life going
i am worried bout u.bt i never say it out
jz bcz i wana be a fren dat u cn accept...
bt it seems im wrong
who said break up cn be fren?y i cant be fren wif her
im sry if any of my post.my words.my attitude
hurts u.let u tink i wn u back.or even disturbing ur life
my feeling to u.mayb will chg someday
bt rite nw.i jz wn to face it.instead of lying myself
i've told myself.never force myself forget u anymore
bcz dats jz suffer more than normal days
dn worry,nw onwards.ntg important.i wont disturb u
i am sorry,sincerely

heartbeats

today so damn busy at work place
seriously im tired,i felt bored of my work place
bcz of dat stupid bonus.i jz cn wait...

im trying nt to tink u ady
bt for no reason.im going my normal day
u jz suddenly appeared in my mind
u makes my heartbeat alive once agn
u dint reply me for 3days dy~
its nt long.bt i felt its so damn long.so damn long...
i miss u so bad right now.i wish u cn msg wif me...

ur bday is coming.i saw u invite all ur frens on 21st
so many.primary frens.secondary frens...jz nt me ='[
i wish u cn jz ask me.im willing to go.i noe yr frens too
bt u jz dn invite me dis fren.im so sad...so depressed
i cn sit at d corner one ppl jz to share ur happiness
dis year.i was going to sing bday song to u agn
i was going to play guitar n sing.jz for u,as a surprise
jz like earlier time of ur bday.make a cake n sing bday song
bt i cant realize my surprise for u anymore dis year
nt even acc u celebrate ur bday.its very hard feeling
past 3years.no matter which date.i jz nid a day wif u
i miss back all the moment.i so miss you.did u noe dat...LJJ

ur bday dis year.if same i make a bday cake for u
will u accept it?as a present frm me dis fren?
i really dnt noe.im scared.u dn wn to accept...
jz let it be normal.if u really dn wn accept.its ok...
u gt lots of fren acc u dis year.sure will very very enjoy it
i miss you right now.hope cn hear more frm u jia

1st post for 2012!!

its 3rd of jan 2012 midnight 2.50am rite nw
i still rmb hw happy hw excited i am
when im writing 1st post in year 2011...
bcz im nt alone dat time,i gt my one
let me say about my last day of 2011
n d 1st day of 2012

31/12/2011
i jz back frm my trip.to d place i want to go wif her
night time 8smtg reached penang back home
rush to qb.i bought some souvenir for her
its dry strawberry n tea sachet gt mango flavour inside
she wn me to gv her other day,bt i insist to gv it today
bcz its new years eve.its nt like last year anymore...wif her
bt at dis moment.i jz wn to hv a look of her for my wish
even for a flash of her,its enuf.for me to end 2011
i gt d best memories in beginning of 2011 in my life
d end of 2011 i jz wish cn get to c her.dats all i wn to do
aft pass her d souvenir.she was like avoiding me.ntg to say
shes wif her frens.i jz leave them n walk away.im satisfied

last year wif her at straits quay countdown.1st time wif her
dis year i was trying nt to go there agn.its d place for us
bt i gt no place to go.till 11 fren ask me go there countdown
den i tink back.i shouldn't avoid.i should go n enjoy it
went ther wif frens.there was so crowded than last year
dis year d firework very nice.bt never nicer than last year
bcz last year 1st sec of 2011.shes jz bside me.im blessed...
hv a gud nite wif frens drinking at berlin bier houz today
aft dat went to 'xi bu qiao' hv our dinner.eat till full full =]
wish her all the best n msg her i jz wn to b fren wif her
hope she really cn let me fulfill my wish forever...
be fren wif me.i tink is nt dat over afterall
thx for being my fren.n sharing all d happiness wif me
dats d end of my new year's eve...

1/1/2012
sleep till 1smtg around 2pm.so tired frm yesterday
its sunday n new year day.jz wana go out.dats all
went to qb.hv my lunch n breakfast at 5smtg.starving
aft dat go watch movie wif frens.im happy today
bt nt as happy as last year,i still rmb everything in last year.haha