christmas happening around me

23th dec
went QB.buy smtg n hv a walk
saw digi doing promotion for data n phone
stopby ask smtg.suddenly her fren walk come.shock?
chat wif her frens abit.about phone n all d promotion
suddenly ask me hw r u.still ok.find someone better
i jz cn laughing all d way.dn noe should gv wad ans
laughter.the best cover for every situation for me

24th dec
today my dinner date wif her did nt work out
she dint msg me say anything.i noe means wad
dn dare msg her dy.till 11.56 wish her merry xmas =]
my xmas eve i told myself no matter at wher,dn at home
i dn wn like last year.disappointment.regret.bcz of her
tonite planned to go mois wif fren.bt last minute canceled
go straits quay hv dinner wif family.no countdown at ther lol
aft dat date another bunch of frens go mois.still going though
so many ppl over ther.my xmas eve although cnt wif her
bt i wish her all d best.i did make myself enjoy on dis day...
back 4am sleep one hour go work ady.so tired.haha

25th dec
its xmas today...ho ho ho merry xmas to all my frens
aft work back home lie down fall asleep ady
slept for 2hours+.woke up ady.going QB wif frens =]
we meet up at 洗布桥 n hv our dinner.2nd time went ther
1st time is wif her =]..today i ate curry mee n koay teow sup
last time wif her eat seafood n rice dint try.wao very nice both
aft meal.QB...went to walk walk n played game for awhile
10.30,i told her to wait for me at coffee bean.for d present..
went to car take.walking to coffee bean saw her ady.gv her
den oni i noe she jz parked bhind my car.lol...
she forget i ask her to wait me ler.lucky saw her cn gv her
gv her n say merry xmas,she take it say thx.walk to car ady
my fren scold n laf me.said im stupid,they dn noe i wait her d
bt i jz treat her as fren nw.i let go ady,dint like b4 so emo n sad
jz a present as a fren.i nt wasting money.its a present for her
hope she will like my present.its frm a santa fren.me =DDD
treat me as a fren.will b d best present for me

i started undstd one thing.LOVE..nt to own another person
frm d beginning.i wn to gv her happiness.i wn her happy everyday
jz is nt me who gving her happiness nw.shes happy wif him...
i should wish her all d best.n blessing for her
i noe she dn love me anymore.dn wn any connection wif me
bt u cant stop me frm loving her.its my love story.i wrote myself
i dn wn to force myself forget her.finally suffering myself
i cn live myself.dn msg her dn disturb her or let she saw me
my fren ask me to find one gf n get new life.bt i dn nid dat
im nt ready for dat.i gt her in my mind.i nt get gf for fun
i wn to face my true feeling.follow my heart voice,dats all
continue wad i tink its right.stop wad it should be stop
let go wad its nt mine.bt grab n appreciate wad i wn in my life
she is one i wn to be wif for d rest of my life.the one
the one i wn to protect wif my everything.be my fren ya ;)
nw cn c her happy..noe shes happy.im glad ^^