christmas happening around me

23th dec
went QB.buy smtg n hv a walk
saw digi doing promotion for data n phone
stopby ask smtg.suddenly her fren walk come.shock?
chat wif her frens abit.about phone n all d promotion
suddenly ask me hw r u.still ok.find someone better
i jz cn laughing all d way.dn noe should gv wad ans
laughter.the best cover for every situation for me

24th dec
today my dinner date wif her did nt work out
she dint msg me say anything.i noe means wad
dn dare msg her dy.till 11.56 wish her merry xmas =]
my xmas eve i told myself no matter at wher,dn at home
i dn wn like last year.disappointment.regret.bcz of her
tonite planned to go mois wif fren.bt last minute canceled
go straits quay hv dinner wif family.no countdown at ther lol
aft dat date another bunch of frens go mois.still going though
so many ppl over ther.my xmas eve although cnt wif her
bt i wish her all d best.i did make myself enjoy on dis day...
back 4am sleep one hour go work ady.so tired.haha

25th dec
its xmas today...ho ho ho merry xmas to all my frens
aft work back home lie down fall asleep ady
slept for 2hours+.woke up ady.going QB wif frens =]
we meet up at 洗布桥 n hv our dinner.2nd time went ther
1st time is wif her =]..today i ate curry mee n koay teow sup
last time wif her eat seafood n rice dint try.wao very nice both
aft meal.QB...went to walk walk n played game for awhile
10.30,i told her to wait for me at coffee bean.for d present..
went to car take.walking to coffee bean saw her ady.gv her
den oni i noe she jz parked bhind my car.lol...
she forget i ask her to wait me ler.lucky saw her cn gv her
gv her n say merry xmas,she take it say thx.walk to car ady
my fren scold n laf me.said im stupid,they dn noe i wait her d
bt i jz treat her as fren nw.i let go ady,dint like b4 so emo n sad
jz a present as a fren.i nt wasting money.its a present for her
hope she will like my present.its frm a santa fren.me =DDD
treat me as a fren.will b d best present for me

i started undstd one thing.LOVE..nt to own another person
frm d beginning.i wn to gv her happiness.i wn her happy everyday
jz is nt me who gving her happiness nw.shes happy wif him...
i should wish her all d best.n blessing for her
i noe she dn love me anymore.dn wn any connection wif me
bt u cant stop me frm loving her.its my love story.i wrote myself
i dn wn to force myself forget her.finally suffering myself
i cn live myself.dn msg her dn disturb her or let she saw me
my fren ask me to find one gf n get new life.bt i dn nid dat
im nt ready for dat.i gt her in my mind.i nt get gf for fun
i wn to face my true feeling.follow my heart voice,dats all
continue wad i tink its right.stop wad it should be stop
let go wad its nt mine.bt grab n appreciate wad i wn in my life
she is one i wn to be wif for d rest of my life.the one
the one i wn to protect wif my everything.be my fren ya ;)
nw cn c her happy..noe shes happy.im glad ^^

im trying to be tough nw =]

its been around one week dint update my blog
keep  busy wif my work,kinda lazy to update =p
2weeks ady.slept nt more than 3hours.shortest 1hour
im so tired.bt i dn wana close my eye.reminds of her
dis few days.every nite look up to d sky
i enjoy the sky full wif stars.i like to look up nw
2more days its christmas ady,am i very stupid?
i ask her if she free to hang out wif me
for a dinner or any meal when shes free
i jz treat her as fren.wana ask her for a meal
mayb inside my heart wana celebrate wif her
bt jz let it be normal.nt going to force anything
my off day spend wif my frens for movie n meal
im back to swimming.aft 2 or 3 years xD

dis saturday nite.christmas eve.whos gona be wif me
im still waiting for her ans.hope cn hv a dinner
if she nt free.i tink gona spend it wif my frens at mois
countdown party over there.i dn wn alone at home
at least at ther.i cn enjoy.drink.get wild...i hope so
gona gv her a present.as a fren.hope she like it

16/12.im sad today

today as usual very late sleep
very late wake.woke up 1st is on9
i receive her msg.ask me do phone thing
n she said dn wn hv any relation wif me dy
fren is fren...others jz cut everything between we two
dats kinda hurt for me.bt nt as hurt as dis one
i go c her prof pic.she deleted all d pic b4 dis
all the pics...i cant c her smile anymore ='[
the only smile dat she have it.i cant c it anymore
i oni cn rmb it in my memories.in my mind
im very sad.y did she delete all d pics
all dat pics is most true feeling n smile she wif me
i tot i cn continue view it frm time to time.bt nw...
i dint msg her few days ady since i return her d phone
i noe she ntg to say wif me dn wn reply me too
bt d pics oso delete all.i jz felt sadness in my heart...
d next thing she going to do.is it delete me frm her life?
shes happy wif her boyfriend.im happy for her

15/12...midnight 5.18am

hey blogger
its 5.18am midnite 15/12/11 rite now
im going to sleep ady jz wana update 1st
jz nw in haf hour i saw 10meteors
first time in my life i really saw meteors
yesterday 14/12 midnite i cant sleep too
go to balcony too n i saw 2meteors oni
jz nw frm the 1st till 10th meteor
i wish very hard towards the sky
hope my wish cn come true im sincere
next week is christmas ady.im still wishing
n 2more weeks its new year's eve
1st person in front of me in first second of 2012
who would it be?...i hv no idea.i wish is her.my fren
end up my 2011.n together welcome 2012
yesterday n today all my wish,is all connected
im jz wishing for one thing.say out all wads in heart
n today 10meteors.i blif it will come true,one day
btw today the sky full of stars.i hope cn enjoy wif her
my wish since last time i wif her...last time

i gv back her everything already
i gt no reason to let her msg me anymore
im scared.aft dis.will she still contact wif me?
or jz lost contact wif me n nt going to chat anymore
i begged.dn forget me pls.jz rmb me pls
i wn to be frens wif u.eventhough u wont tink bout me
bt sometime when u r lonely n boring.still cn msg me
if she really forget bout me.means...i vanish in her fren list
wont even hv chance to chat wif her d...dn happen pls

its 6am n im still awake!!!

oh god its 6am n im still awake
cant get into sleep yet
im still energized wad happen to me
dis blog is writing my sunday 11/12
hmm back frm work around 1pm oni sleep
5smtg woke up ady.hahaha.kinda swt
wake up damn hungry find things to eat d
sit on9 agn.same thing everyday
nite time go take dinner at mcd wif fren
2 of us chat wtv pass our mind
say back our skul time oso.haha so fun
back frm there 12smtg on9 till nw
dn noe wad i do dis 5hours+ LOL
on9 walk out balcony look up at the sky c moon
the moon is so beautiful so bright so nice
everytime giving me the same feeling.sadness
hmm.im nt emo-ing ok.i let go ady
bt cant stop me frm continue loving her right
love her frm my heart.din go disturb her say anything
i tink dis is d best i cn done for her =]
hope she wont forget me as fren.cn msg each other yet

10/12

ohh no lately im having insomnia agn
stay awake till 12smtg oni sleep
around 5 woke up ady so boring lar
whole day at home no where to go
my frens all ask me to forget everything
bt i jz telling myself
i cant be couple wif her.bt i hope still cn b fren
i will appreciate be fren wif her.dats wad i wn
dn worry i tink deeply ady,i will let go
bt i wont gv up in anything
let go.dint means i will give up(nt chase her)
let go frm hoping she come back my side
bt never gv up in my life.my dream.my world

today's song for me
adele - someone like you
nevermind i'll find.someone like you
i wish nothing but the best.for you too
don't forget me i beg.i remember u said:
'sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead'
very nice song love it =]

25/11 - 9/12.keep save as draft.wrote so long.should post ady =]

9/12
y everytime i very determine to let go of u
u will come back in my dream visit me
its very hard feeling.i wana let go.bt u came back
i dn dare to sleep back anymore.im so scare
i dn wn to dream about u anymore.moment wif u
no matter the ending is wad.the process how hard it be
my world.would never wn u to vanish in thin air
hope u cn still be my fren.boring time msg me awhile ^^


8/12
i decided dn go tink anymore.she wont back to me d
tinking she will back wif me jz let me suffer more
its impossible for her to back jz like before
she chg to another person.heart belongs to someone else
i noe u n him very happy right now
mayb i cant gv u wad he cn gv u
for u,hes better than me.im nt like him such gud guy
i will let go.wont tinking to ask u back by my side
bt i wont forget u.u r the best thing in my life
u gv me no limit of changes in myself.i saw it...
to c u happy.dat is wad i wn gv u frm beginning
nw u get ur happiness.i will bless u with my best...
eventhough the one gv u happiness.is nt me anymore...

in dream i saw a couple.wedding bside d beach.damn romantic
i wish its me in dat wedding.hahaha.romantic ok
today listen to few song so nice for me
蘇打綠 - 當我們一起走過
Plain White T's - Rhythm Of Love


7/12
back frm work.sure open fb.first thing i saw...
make my heart fall frm high n broke into pieces
saw u posted a pic wif him.hw cn u like dis
so fast.u take pic n post out.im nt dead i saw it d
it took me 6months to hv 1st pic wif u
bt around one week.u having a pic wif him ady
jz nw morning work place get scold.sien nia
dn noe lar wad i did n i get ntg.going gv up ady
nite time one of her old fren add me in fb last days ago
we having a chat about studies n all dat
n she chat till me n her stuff
she really gv me lots lots of gud advice
she experienced situation jz like me b4
told me c her nw wif other.dn go drunk n hurt myself ady
hurting myself no one will pity me.even is her
told me so many thing.n share wif me.i tears tonight...
time...will be the cure for everything...
n please dn simply tag someone in fb pic
bcz the pic nt belongs to u n him.dn tag him inside

6/12
dis few days back frm work very late sleep
sleep few hours wake up ady.cant sleep well
forget someone.how hard could it be?
but i jz cant forget it.so easily
cz i put all my heart for her
anyone undstd wad im saying...


5/12
back frm work oso tired ady.awhile 9smtg go sleep d
woke up check on fb agn..same thing everyday
n i saw u posted a pic.a pic frm beach over there
wrote over there DAR♥...n i was speechless.wad cn i do
bt ur dis pic.remind me memories wif u
i went back to read our valentines day post at blog
our 1st valentine day.go out together n celebrate it
d pic u take on dat day.which is write on beach too
sadness struck my heart agn.dat memories.wont forget it
i go c her new bf.profile n pic everything
i found dat he gt a gf b4 dis.in a random pic
dat pic was posted around july.its like 4 to 5months ago
should i tell u dis matter??or u knew dat ady...
i jz scare he lie on u.hw cn he so fast forget her gf
did he really love u?or jz playing a puppy love??
i really hope he truely love u.dn wn to c u get hurt...

4/12
today slept till 12 smtg.bt still nt enuf.jz woke up myself
whole day at home so damn boring.no program today
no fren on9 all work.no ppl acc.called my fren
bt hes wif his gf n her family going out
dn noe y start to miss u agn.i tried nt to miss ady ok
hanging at fb check updates.suddenly saw u at pangkor.wif HIM
oh shit dat feeling.i dn noe hw to describe.so awful.so bad
we together for 3years+.everytime ask u go vacation or smtg
u say bz work.tired n no money.bt u jz back frm ns 4days
together wif him for nt more than 1 month.u cn go wif him ady
its kinda sad for me,n u never tink about my feeling anymore...
jz cn hope u really enjoy wif him over ther,nite shift.fking boring


3/12
haha today is my off day.cz wn go relative wedding
early wake ady.so sleepy.fetch my my mom bro n sis go
wear smarter handsome handsome go c gt girl bo xDD
erm.today nt much ppl lor cz all come drink tea eh
finiz time all go to d guy side drink agn.end up i slept there
haha sit at d sofa so sleepy d i jz sleep over there.nice
aftnoon back time damn it traffic jam.all work haf day
jam so long frustrated wif d traffic at penang.bike d best =D
rest awhile night go out agn wif my aunt them.frm kl =]
1st time eat double chicken special burger.so damn full
its going to 5 ady.wana sleep gao gao today till late xD
aftnoon msg her ask her for penang pesta go for a walk
too bad she said going for travel dn noe hw long oso
jz cn wait her back mayb ask her agn??haha


2/12
back frm work.check on fb updates.den sleep ady sleepy
fren ask for bowling bt too sleepy cant ride bike will fall asleep
suddenly someone called.its a name.i never expect...
call for asking me smtg.thx bcz i cn hear ur voice =].i cant sleep back
sry finally i cant help u.dat machine cant bluetooth i oso dn noe d
fb saw u wrote the love things wif him.im jealous for no reason =[
since i cant sleep back.n work fren frm spore back to penang
wif them all go out take my dinner.james foo western food
hv a great chat n meal over there.love in mango drinks =]
back frm there still early ler.ntg do damn boring...
sit till ass oso pain r.on9 check updates oni.3smtg ady.wn lie d
hw cn i forget about u faster huh...

1/12
1st day of december.1st post of d month.im going to start new life
omg 1 slept for 1hour yesterday nite.im super duper fking sleepy
working cutting my things.n i fall asleep.epic!!!!
my fren in front of me.ask me u fall asleep r?i was lafing along
damn 1st time i dint get gud sleep so many days.n 1hour sleep
back frm work sure is on9 first.n i saw...ur fb wrote u back dy
owh i tot is 3rd of dec oni back.dint noe u so fast back dy
u oso chg frm complicated to single.its nt a bad thing anyway
jz kinda weird y so fast u back.dint go ask u oso.take 2hours nap
wake up n go for relative wedding dinner.wear very smart =D
8smtg my fren suddenly msg me.say i should forget her.weird -.-

aft i back frm dinner.open fb.den oni i noe d reason
she put in relationship wif another guy ady.so fast...??
its her ns fren.n i jz cn noe her thing by c her fb.cant msg her ady
back to my dinner.im enjoy today at there.eat lots.drink lotsss
envy+sad+happy to c a new married couple.when is my time =]
jz cn c all the happy moment of the couple.n imagine mine xD
drink lots of beer.some of red wine.head getting heavier
back driving car fetching my mom n sis.oh god pls awake haha
im drunk ady.at there going to finiz time.i order a last song ^^
爱很简单by陶喆...i jz tink of dis song dat time.nice...
a comfort for myself.a wish for my relative...singing along
back time my mom suddenly come in my room n ask me n her
told her everything.jz wad she ask me.makes my wana cry
keep asking y so long will end.ask me hw oni is gud enuf
did i sad,did i ask her back,did i wn her back,who ask to break
omg my tears is on my eye ady.try so hard to look away nt to cry
mom said.some fate still cn come back.bt some once lost.is lost~

30/11
today is 30/11.its been one month ady since u ask to be fren
if we still together.today oso we together 3years 5months ady
time past by really like a blink of eye...
yesterday sleep 2hours plus cant wake nearly late for work
work morning somemore busy.so sleepy today
aft work back jz lie for awhile den wake up d.cant sleep well
nite time finally frens confirm.go neway 11pm till midnight
haha 1st time i go neway oni.wont too late i tink.paiseh nia
go NS near qb eat mee goreng.den up for singing session
6ppl den 1smtg one more come.7ppl singing so damn siok!!!
i sing alots.hmm.song of u n me.song of me.song of sad n happy
after all im happy.cn enjoy wif my frens.crazy wif them.TODAY
we sing till 4am!!my voice going to lost ady.throat so pain
back home its 4.30.dint take bath ady 5am nw wn sleep ady =]

i tink all about u n me ady,i wont go find u like before ady
msg u frequently.care u so much.today is 30th,mayb its time dy
i wish u all d best,jz cn wish u happiness.n becareful by urself
no matter in work.or new relationship.or life.all the best for u
dat day present for u.hope u like it.nw is last present..my blessing
hope our fate to be couple end.bt still cn be fren =]
2more days n u r back frm ns ady.aft 77-4days holiday of NS life
dn noe y i msg u aft i back frm neway.wish u happy december xD

29/11
4smtg oni sleep yesterday.lucky work noon today =]
wake up go work ady.tension at work place
one ppl working today.dozen of a la carte order
wrote 6ppl.bt 20+ of orders.fuck i hate one ppl working
all my frens work morning shift.so lonely today
back frm work.dn noe y go youtube listen song
all i listen is i sing wif u before at redbox
still rmb we wn to sing one song.snatching d mike
dn let another to sing.i tink back n smile myself
ur birthday.we sing together.surprise u wif d cake i make
dat memories.hw cn i forget all dat...redbox  ♥
my heart still staying at ur place.dint come back yet =[

28/11
lie very long last nite.i dn even noe wad time i slept
aft work i hv a very long chat wif one fren at work place
i say out everything in my heart.sadness n happiness
she gt her relationship prob too,jz sharing each other
nite time.went out hv dinner wif frens,chat along
aft dinner raining i cant back.3 of us went to near airport
heavy rain.n jz to c the moment of aircraft landing
inside the car,i oso told them everything,so so many thing
they comfort me n gv me all d advice,its very useful for me
im glad to hv my frens when i feel ntg left for me in dis world
aft the long chat n waiting for d landing.we go to station one QB
over ther we hv long chat.talk about work n all dat
mayb leaving is d best for me.i cn leave dis sad place
too many memories of u n me over here.everywhere,tink of u
till 2smtg oni back.raining.is it crying for me?

27/11
yesterday stay late till 3smtg oni sleep ady.6 wake for work
very tired bt lie down oni tink bout u.cant close my eye
its sunday.i noe u gt ur phone.aft work.cant control myself
take out my guts n msg u agn.pretend to ask u about phone
finally u replied me.wif a short msg.bt im glad to c ur msg
bt awhile.u ask me to cut all the phone line of u n me
u said dn wn to waste my money.is it jz a reason to leave me?
i said u cn pay me back.bt u refuse to do dat.im so sad
i ask u agn.i promise to gv u time.if i wait no matter hw long
is it i wont hv chance oso.for u to reconsider about me
u ans.dn like my pattern.me for u.left 习惯(used to it) in ur life
dn wait u,no chance oso,u tired wif me ady...dis kills me
i start to drink in my room agn.i cant accept all dis reason
u said gt some1 ady,jz duno whether he suits u or not
i jz cn tell u wish u all the best.left the pain for myself
everyone said.appreciate.n effort for love.bt i get ntg at d end
hard to accept.b4 ns ur smiles n everything so true,bt nw...
nite go my cousin lil baby birthday,all my relatives
tried so hard to smile.i dn wn let them noe anything
bt my aunt,which gt fb.saw all my things,n hv a chat wif me
dis talk really let me noe many things..including leaving...
i cant protect her forever.mayb she will get hurt or meet failure
bt by dat way.she will noe who is d best for her.n get mature...
thx very much to my aunt.actually shes still young.26?haha
share many stories n experience wif me.let me relax nt so emo


25/11
so emo.think of u.felt so lonely
aft work was thinking go back n drink agn
bt frens ask me go out hv some drink n chat
at there i make myself crazy talk all lame stuff
jz to make them laf.make myself act ntg happen
bt inside my heart,no one undstd the wound i get
dis few days im scared to sleep.im scare to dream u agn
around 4 reach home.bt sit till 5smtg oni go lie down
nt i dn wn to sleep.i jz scare...once i sleep.i wish to sleep forever
its nt i dn wn to wake.jz wn to stay in dream wif u
i dn wn wake up open my eyes n accept d fact u r nt wif me
so long dint msg u ady.hw r u over there...

hey i felt like to post something

its middle of the night right now
and i cant sleep agn
its been around a week dint update ady
hws my life going?
everyday late sleep n wake early for work
dn wn to update blog cz i lost myself
hmmm...hw about start wif u
saturday sunday u take phone
u dint even bother to msg me anymore
u dn even care to scold me or ask me doing wad there
u dn wn to c my name anymore?
or jz hope i vanish frm dis world...
since u dn wn to find me i wont disturb u oso
dats d last thing i tell u.i hope i cn continue dis
i guess right nw u enjoying every time wif frens
going to finiz ur ns already.gt thinking of staying there?
back frm ns mz work already.sure abit lazy n excited
sure gt guys chase u over there ba.u gt gud requirements
u sure gt some1 always acc u ba.i hope he's nice =]
i dint get ur msg.my heart actually bleeds badly
bt since u wn ur own life.n im nt in ur world anymore
i will try to get tougher...

last few days continue work for 16hours 3days
jz hoping to get busy myself.dn tink of u
im exhausted n tiring.bt still will tink about u
its hard to forget someone i love so hard

today 24/11
aft u went for ns.i never hang out for so long ady
waiting for u come back n hang out wif u d
bt when u tell me we both be frens time
i knew its hard to go out wif u agn
today i go watch the movie i wish to watch wif u
b4 its shown of cinema i saw the trailer.i start to wait
waiting the day i date u together go watch dis movie
you are the apple of my eye.那些年,我们一起追过的女孩
bt dat day u came back frm ns for holiday
u watch wif ur frens ady,i noe no chance ady
i really wish cn watch wif u dis movie actually
bt today finally i go wif my 3buddies to watch
thx them actually.bcz 3 of them oso watch b4
willing to acc me go watch agn im very happy
dis is really a very nice movie.touching.n funny
watching the movie.some parts makes my eye,tears
i know movie is movie wont come true
bt i jz cn imagine the scene which is u n me
mayb...u going to marry to some1 u love
someone dat cn gv u wn u wn.while i jz cn wish u
i hope im dat one dat gives u happiness.but...
anyway today is another day for me
jz disappointed.bside me.its nt u anymore...
i wish cn hear ur laugher agn bside me.my dear love

sometime.i still will look at my phone wait for ur msg
b4 sleep still thinking to hv ur call to sleep
do smtg wrong n scolded at me.n make u laf back
without you in my life.my world so dark =[
its 4am.another post by a sad side of me

13/11.i mz stop.this for u.LJJ

morning aft finiz my work
fast go georgetown buy the porridge u like
i ask u b4 wn date u go eat bt morning sell oni
u say lazy wake n gt work tired cant go
so today i fast go buy wn put at ur hse
ltr ur parents come time cn take for u eat
bt aft buy n going to ur hse
u msg me said cant take in n scold me ask 1st
last time i ask u scold me say can take in
i noe next time no chance take u go eat
dats y i jz go buy for u today while i still cn
bt finally u jz scold me n dint reply me anymore

i dn noe y.slowly ride my bike
i ride till ur camp agn...dis is my 3rd day come le
i guess today u on duty.sneak at bus there hope cn c u
bt wait for hours n still dint c u
i tink u inside office dint come out ady
jz cn back home wif disappointment feeling
dis time is last time i like dis oso le
i wont sneaky go n try to c u anymore.im sorry

noe u busy whole day n nid to go for buddha class
bt i dint get ur reply i jz very hard to go trough
finally i msg u.n i tell u i check on u
dis is making u hate me more?
bt i oso tell u all my feeling le
im jealous of him.n i dn wn to lose u
i wish i cn hear u say gv a chance to we two
i hope u cn gv a chance to me.i cn chg anything for u
no matter wad u wn me to chg oso cn.all jz for u
bt u return phone oso le no chance to get ur answer
today.i tell u all my feeling.i really wnt go kek u agn
we both many things hv chg.when u said break.u chg le
u say treat me as fren.bt i hope u really mean it.as fren
one things for sure dint chg.i still loving u so much jia
i will gv u time.no matter hw long is it.i will wait for u
hope when u tink le.u will gv me a ans.no matter wad ans

while waiting for u
i will chg myself.to a better man
hope when u back time.cn c a diff me
eventhough our relation chg le.my care to u nvr chg
i will try to be more open minded
i wont drink till so bad torture myself ady
if u dn wn c my name.i wont appear in ur phone
i still miss.ur hugs.hugging u.the world is all mine
wish my wish cn come true.soon or later
effort to get back my love.miss lee jia jia

keep lying myself

today morning i went to dat place agn
raining today all no activity
i tink all cn sleep oso very gud
back time i make a call
n wad i heard.make me hurts
actually i noe all things about u
i dn noe whether u lie me or telling truth
bt i wont ask u anymore
since u wn to hide frm me
i wont tell u i noe all dat n open ur lies
before dis all the moment wif me.is dat love?
do you really love me before dis?
hw cn our relation for 3years plus
u say end n end up so cruely
hw cn u dn even bother me anymore now...
our relation really means nothing to you mar?
i jz cn slowly suffer the pain
i noe u at there very happy nw
gt ppl acc u on call all dat
u dn wn msg me i oso wont disturb u agn
if i no meaning to u anymore.i wont force u d...

in dis special day.11/11/11

haha.today in dis special day
i done a freaking crazy thing
aft work i went to a place
a place dat is so far
travelled for around 20km
yet i reach n see for 3minutes
im satisfied n leave dat place
today i will rmb
bcz i cn do wad i wn.c wad i wn
i wish i cn c u dat time
back time its already 10 smtg
sleepy oso larh
do all thing n on9 awhile 12 oni sleep

today i oso saw smtg dat im curious about
haha.if today i cn hv a wish
i wish.i cn hv a call frm u
its months ago since u call me
today u at there exercise all enjoy?
gt fren gv u surprise or anything special?
hope u cn happy always ya ^^

tmr is 11/11/11

early morning late sleep agn
sleepy bt jz cant sleep when lie down
my mom asked me
y recently u so late sleep n early wake
i jz cn smile n walk away
bcz i dn noe hw to ans ur question
in my dream.its very suffer for me
today i hypnotize myself to sleep
forcing myself to sleep long enough
awake n keep lying at bed.till 6pm wake up
no one at home.alone eat bath sit sofa look up at sky
my life is so meaningless right now

tmr is 11/11/11
its the day im waiting for to do smtg for u
bt i dn hv dis chance anymore...
u at there.sure rmb dis day.cz spend wif ur frens
at dis special day.im wishing to hang out wif u
bt for u.u will rmb dis day.cz u at NS go trough
im nt asking for anything more
jz hope cn get a call frm u.calling me dis fren...

the moon looks very nice for me
bt i jz cn pray to the moon.to make my wish come true
its 15th of chinese calender
hope u at there.look up the sky if see the moon
its the same moon u see jz like me

from time to time.im talking to sky.asking myself
wad r u doing right now.is it chatting n enjoying?
imagine-ing wad u doing right there...
STUPID.yet its a way for me to comfort myself

i jz back.wif sadness

i jz back wif my fren jia chee
he fetching his gf go out n ask me
fetch me go 1st avenue
they go buy smtg den oni put his gf
reach 1st avenue
i jz following their back because
all the memories wif u flash out agn
i really wish u were here wif me
still rmb we at there laughing all the way
go there hv our meal n shopping
all dat.is the memories i cherish
aft he put his gf we go hv dinner
we chat n laugh.bt i dn dare tell him
hw stupid am i.wif him chat.bt tinking bout her

back home.i saw the moon so bright n round
so beautiful.i wish u cn acc me sitting there
enjoying the moonlight scenery...
nw...i oni wn to tell myself
pls let me keep the memories.i cn recall anytime
u at there enjoying wif frens mar?
still tired mar??did u c the moonlight too?
hope u cn enjoy it too
11/11/11 coming.the day i wish to spend wif u =[

once...our memories.my happiness

so sleepy jz nw morning
yesterday nt enuf sleep
back time on9 awhile
den lie at my bed cant sleep
go out lie at sofa
fall asleep le
bt sleep for 4hours wake d
aikz

i dream about my happiness
3years ago.ur skul holiday time
still rmb our first time outing?
u help me to make my hair straight
help me to do all nice nice
we go qb wif ur frens sit bus
dats d 1st time our outing
back time we sit bus too
at bus.u was tired n sleepy
i find a place for u den we two sit
u slowly put ur head at my shoulder
den sleep at there.dats d moment i dream
dat moment i never forget it.im so 幸福
i really miss dat time we two love each other
in our eyes.gt each other.is happiness ady
first time outing.n my first time so happy

i miss you agn
i wn to stop crying bcz im guy
bt i jz cant do it.bcz i love you jia T.T

you're back to camp

im very sleepy today
u going back
morning cant sleep well
awhile wake ady
did u noe i keep take my hp c gt msg or nt
i was hoping to get ur msg to chat wif me
bt its 3pm already.i cant wait n msg u agn
thx for replying my msg jz nw b4 u back
although u still ntg to say wif me
bt u still make urself reply me.im glad
u back return phone time.im lost agn
i keep shouting n release my stress
i jz cant afford to lose you my love
still rmb the day i bring u to take the ns letter
dat moment u ask me y so sad
bcz i dn wn u to leave me.i dn wn things chg
if i gt a chance.i hope u never get the ns thing
i dn wn u to go.dn wn u leave me my girl

i tried to sleep jz nw
bt once i close my eye
all i c is u.i really c u
i cant make myself fall asleep
i miss you i love you
all the moment we go through
all the thing i done for u
all the smile dat u gv me
i cant forget about it i so suffer
my sleep is see all dis memory like movie
i love you too deep making myself like dis
lee jia jia.i willing sacrifice anything to chg
bt did u still hv feeling to me?
i very appreciate we both.dis relationship
i promise every year make a bday cake for u
u said u will waiting my surprise every year
all dis promises.vanish le mar?cried so bad T.T

im in serious pain =[

omg work whole night
my head damn pain
no penadol to eat no time to rest
like my brain shrinking larh lol

today u going back ns ady
yesterday dn noe where u go
so late still dint reply really worry
msg ask whether u back ady or nt
u jz replied back le
no more msg frm u anymore
dn noe is it really ntg to say wif me le
hope we r still fren ba...
dn noe wad time u back hw u back oso
wish u gud luck in ur camp ya
we r jz fren.if u dn wn say.nt a prob oso

keep raining.really affecting my mood
so cold n so down
looks like going to insomnia agn =[
11/11/11.anyone willing to date me?haha
hope its a gud day dat time

the last time,no more repeating

sry dat im a jerk
i dint mean to disturb u
keep saying bout him
mayb i jz cant control myself
keep lying myself.bt im too over le
i hope u cn accept my apologize too
i noe u n him is ntg.i nt wn to blame u ya
u n him jz normal fren.dat msg n call talk oni
im sry to keep saying u...

yesterday thx to my buddy jia chee
thx for willing to listen to my problem
i oso wn to b her frens.wait her back
slowly chg myself n chase her back
bt nw she jz treat me as a fren
a fren which i dn noe hw to explain
she din even gv me a chance a hope nw
she dn love me anymore.nw jz like a new fren relation
bt i cant forget about her.all about her all the time
ignoring me maybe is better for her
i jz wn to date u out.hv a movie.meal.n a talk
as a last gift for me b4 i leave.my last wish
bt nt going to come true anymore

the alcohol ruined my body.nw so suffer everyday
nw i wont drink red wine n tiger beer together.experience
keep vomiting n no apetite to eat nw
cant even sleep well.nw im like a dead man
i tried so hard to smile n cover my wound
bt i cant make it...
maybe im leaving earlier.mayb cant even c u anymore
at here.no matter go where.oso flash out shadow of u
mayb wif u too long.bcome a rely to u
i jz worry other guy dn noe is which type
scare they is playing dat type.lie ur feeling
i jz worry other guy cant protect u
bt im so stupid.u noe who is gud n bad
if im leaving.i hope i cn make a new life myself

sry to make u hate me n felt so disturbing
i wont do dis anymore.today i promise myself
if u treat me as fren.i will treat u as fren
if u tink of me.a msg will make me feels better
if nt so fren.ntg say to me.i oso wont msg disturb u agn
u said should go out c the world n noe more frens
dis oni considered as a life.bt i cant do it le
thx dat day.u called me to fetch u
i cn hear ur voice for few second
i cn c ur face in car.mayb dat moment is ur awful time
sitting there n ntg cn talk to me
but i wont forget it.dat night.my last piece
i dn wn to regret till the moment u leave me
i love u.n the place always belongs to u
hope someday.somewhere.we cn still met up...

im tired le

im tired of guessing dis n dat
yesterday till jz nw 7 le
u still dn wn reply me
mayb...u really forget bout me ady
i tink u gt ur fren cn msg acc u today
yesterday i ask u bt u dint hear tiok
today i get my guts.n ask u all le
finally i cn get all the ans i dn noe
thx for telling me all the truth
i nw noe we two really no chance le
no matter hw hard i tried.u gt ur own world
ur world n me.will never b same anymore
i hope u cn chase wad u wn in future
n careful in dis realistic world
full of dangerous thing.n dn walk wrong path
if i cn reverse the time
i hope i cn reverse to the time i met u
n make myself so care u all nid to ask u
eventhough u dont love me.bt i wont blame u
i hope u cn let me continue love u
by knowing u r safe all the time
thx for gving me all the memories
ur good n bad.will always in my mind
all the best jia
n all the best to me
i oso will cry badly.bt aft finiz.i hope i cn do better

my 2nd off day

right nw.is 4am.jz back
u n me.really so stranger nw
u dn even say careful to me anymore
is it so hard to talk wif me agn??
dis time really let me felt
i gt no chance on u anymore
u gt ur own path n own man to choose
n i never catch up u agn...
my heart so pain.bt oni i feel it
u sure very enjoy wif ur frens at there
im so stupid stay near u to wait u
u even scared to let ur fren saw me
i tink i worry bout ur safety oso extra d
u nw go out all oso gt ur own fren
u oni noe it urself.i no right to noe it oso
heard ur conversation wif fren in car
dats d stop of my heartbeat
i wish to stop there.n hv a talk wif u
i wish i cn ask u clearly about dis realationship
bt inside the car.i cn c.u wont mind bout it
thx u jia.thx for gving me all the memories
thx for dis chance i cn hear ur voice for one last time
we r jz a most normal fren nw
i wont ask u anything nw onward
wont mind anything oso.bcz my identity chg ady
i want to say.i love you
before.present.future...i will still continue it
thx u for love me once before
i wish u all the best.n happy always.becareful in all

im lucky.i reached home safely.im blessed
lil bit drunk.vomited at roadside =[
jz nw is worthy for me...
today is my 2nd off day
tmr night going to start my midnight shift
the shift i hate the most since last months
i going to suffer insomnia agn T.T
i hate dis shift so much.i hate it :'(

:'(

ur words
hurt me so bad
do i sounds like im smiling???
my voice cn b upside down for u o?
i saw ur number fast ans ady bt bcome miss call
i called u back i tot u gt anything ok
im stupid.bt im so ......
i was going to call ur fren already did u noe
dis whole day im following u
dint c u on9 so long dint reply
so late did u noe im worry
im ur fren.bt i still cn worry u
bt wad u treat me as...
im so depressed
u cn scold me stupid or jz F me
bt u wont noe wads my feeling
i dn noe hw to continue anymore
i hope i gt a fren there acc me drink nw

my currently mood ♥

i miss you

but i cant tell u or msg u

bcz u r nt like b4 anymore...

if saw my msg.wads ur feeling nw...

in my mind

aikz super sick rite now
super headache wn to hv a rest

dn noe y
aft i heard dis song dat day
the rhythm keep playing in my mind
is it the melody or the lyrics dat attract me
i jz cant stop frm singing dis song
very meaningful song ♥

y am i still so stupid

yes i noe u n me right nw is most normal fren
i dn hv any rights to ask u anything
i cant even say more wif u
whole day u gt ppl acc i noe dat
i noe u gt many friends n 'fren' acc u
u cn wait till 5 oni reply me
i noe u n me is nt so normal anymore
bt dis matter i knew it very clearly
we r like stranger dat noe each other
y u wn to tell me agn 'we just fren'
u tink i will forget or jz wn to remind me agn...
i jz wn to forget u by nt doing anything
u r cruel bt u never noe it...
mayb u feel dat i still dint get clear about dis
u gt ur own path i wont disturb u anymore

y am i so stupid.fuck myself!!i hate myself
get ready everything jz for a normal meal wif u
noe today friday nite will jam going out early
bt wif a big prob u dint tell me wad time
unconfirm whether its ltr or nt
aft one hour u replied chg to monday
im so stupid jz like before.gv too much hopes
i dint hate u or angry.im jz angry of myself
at least dis 1hour let me undstd myself
did i sacrifice too much?y i still like before
i really wn to chg myself.i dn wn get hate by someone
someone dat i care.i dn wn finally get scolded n hated
i noe the meal is a normal n ntg conversation
bt dn noe y i still putting so much effort n hopes
i guess.the meal.will b d last memory for me to keep
aft dis meal.i think wont hv chance anymore
no matter the meal cancelled on monday or nt
i wont mind bcz its fated between u n me
earlier in aftnoon u said u dn noe wn out wif me or nt
i noe u still in doubt to c me agn...
still hard for u to decide.am i the one u wn to meet??
anyway dats ur decision.i will nt say one word n respect u
i told myself.dis 4days.u c who u wn.den ok le
sometime ur msg i oso dn noe hw to reply
reply too warm let u misundstd
reply too cold i dn noe wad should i write

today my off day jz spend it in my room
waiting for some messages.waiting for some hopes
end up wif despair n fragment of broken heart
keep lying myself i cn do it.bt i never make it
mayb its bcz of yesterday nite drunk abit
start to runny nose n headache.hate being sick
plus family thing.head going to burst
fuck my family.i hate YOU!!!!
FUCK YOU!!!u wn me PAY u??
FOR ALL DIS YEARS U RAISE ME UP??
u tink being a dad is a repaying thing???
u r nt a gud dad in my world!!!
come n take my life!!if nt jz tink u never born me!!!
U R MOST FUCKING DAD I EVER SEEN
I LOOK DOWN ON U!!!
IF U THINK U RAISE ME USING MONEY
N WANT TO GET BACK THE MONEY
THEN I WILL LOOK DOWN ON U!!
I WILL PAY U BACK THE MONEY
N DN HOPE I WILL TAKE CARE OF U!!!!
IF U DN WN WASTE MONEY
U SHOULDN'T BORN ME AT FIRST OK
I THOUGHT U HV CHG BCOME BETTER
I STARTED TO TELL MYSELF FORGET D PAST
BT LOOKS LIKE IM WRONG
FUCK I HATE MY LIFE

our relationship
let me think of dis song
watch dis mv listen to the song
the moment wif u all flash out :'(
u always taken the place in my heart
im so stupid.hope cn love u in my heart
im very satisfied ♥
waiting watch dis movie

thursday

today at work place one ppl
boring time boring
busy time busy
so hungry i no appetite today
fking order one by one damn hate it
grrrrrrrr.shouted when fed up lol
things all do like cant finiz eh
wn go back time.received ur msg
struggling inside my heart
dn noe hw should i reply u...
i knew u oso dn noe wad to say wif me agn
asked me tmr wn to go out eat or nt
once agn im in the middle of the line
i wn to go out wif u so badly.bt im so scared...
tmr u coming back ady.u sure gt many things to do
i noe many ppl date u.u oso gt u wn go out d ppl
i tink u n me.go out oso wont make u happy
i drink abit agn jz nw.abit dizzy ady
i jz cant stop myself frm drinking it
i jz wn to make myself nt to think about u
4days for u.i oni hope u cn enjoy it seriously
aft u back.u still gt 25 days den finiz ady
dis 4days will b the support for u over there
very fast den u will finiz this training
wish dis time u back will enjoy ya =]
hope 'he' will acc u all the time too
sry i called u at my drunk situation
hope i not disturbing ur sleep
headache already lar.wn go sleep already me
dint notice nw is so late already
should stop thinking anymore.night

so hard

so fast.u flash out frm no where agn
i tried to forgot already
i noe myself gt problem
u told me dats d problem between u n me
dis is unavoidable fact
no matter u gt secret or nt
i was hoping to forget u
i dn noe wad will i do if continue like dis
i dn wn to gv u any pressure
im scared of hurting u once again
i dn wn to disturb u anymore oso
dis few months.i tink u gt some problem bcz of me
im sry.jz wn to apologize to u.i will try my best...

im still me.dint chg

recently i working
did i bcome more angry and violant?
jz nw my head say dn so loud talk wif trainee
scold so loud so rude ltr get complain
bt i jz feel im teaching them
im nt scolding them for ntg
i scold them is bcz of smtg goes wrong
mayb i bcome abit rude than b4
bt its still under control
today 10 go work for ot already
learn some at banquet actually
bt 1st time so tired larh me =[
i nid to sleep already good night frens
i wont say about u n me agn.i wont force u
i must start to be strong now
i will try to cover my sadness by a smile

first of november

its d 1st post for my november
today 31/10 i gt smtg to say for work
3pm work.2.45 u wn us to report for work
bt on my way suddenly rain so heavy
i late for 5minutes report in work
should u say like dat to me?
its nt dat i purposely late come or wad
bt rain i hv to slow down my speed
its my work.i wont risk my life for ur RULE
hope u cn undstd one day.im nt gving reason...

jz nw when i facing my screen n chat
my mom came in asked me
did i drink in my room?
i said yes
u drink 3cans at one time?
yea
y u drink so many at one time.u gt wad problem.broke up r?
dat moment.i cant turn back my head
bcz my eye is going to drop tears
hw cn i tell u all my things.i dn noe hw to tell dis
i dn noe hw to ans.jz said y cant i drink
i want to drink den i drink
bt in my heart.ur question make my wound bleed
i told myself i wont do dis agn.hope i cn do it...

30/10 sunday

rite nw.im awake nt drunk anymore
i cn write wads in my mind clearly =]

today till 11smtg i in work oni msg u
said izit u forget to reply me yesterday till nw
bt u replied is u fall asleep dint reply
if dats d reason impossible 11smtg still dint wake
aft i ask u.u said u early woke up ady today
dat jz makes me even more confused
i tink dats nt wad i should care anymore...
i tink dat 'fren' is acc-ing you the whole night.and early morning
am i right about dis?my 6th sense.i think i never noe dis ans
at least nw i cn lie myself u gt someone there for u to make u smile
im nt gud enuf.i never blame u for dis decision actually
i noe u r adult.bt i jz worry about u sometime
sometime u r jz being too tough.n careless in smtg
i scare 'he' cant take care of u n hurt u let u down
i hope 'he' will be the one u wn.always protect u.love u
nw onwards no matter who u wif.i will tell myself
u gt someone dat u wn.u nid.in ur world
lying myself.will make me feel better.to let go everything

today i told myself mz concentrate work dn reply u
bt i still cant control myself keep replying u
when u said u going return ur phone
dats d 1st time ever.i be so mean to u
said i ntg to talk wif u and bye dn reply me agn
dats d hardest time for me to type it.dis really hurts me
to make me forget u.1st mz make u hate me n ignore me
dats d 1st step.i hope 1st step cn make me wake up
no one will undstd the feeling of mine

today i go work at pc fair last minute ask me to work d
i agree n thought i cn bz whole day wont tink of u anymore
bt i cant make it.i nid some more time to do it
the saddest part was when i start to ride bike back home
the moment i start my journey.my eyes start to get wet
i think of u so badly.think y is dis happen so sudden
all the way back my tears out by itself.cant control.cover by my helmet
dis is nt wad i planned.actually i was waiting ur ns to finiz
i knew dis will happen one day.bt i hoping cn hv a memory of u
i gt so many places to go wif u
its the place i wanted to go n the place u promise to go wif me
mayb u forget ady bt i still rmb.tot aft u finiz ns we cn go all these places
bt all dis jz happen so sudden.nw we r a stranger frens
all dis nt going to come true anymore
the places u wish to go.all research dat i done for our vacation.gone...
i tink other than d time we exchange back hp
no more chance n reason for me to meet u anymore...
as a fren identity.cn i still joke n laf in front of u...
i nid much much more of time.i wish i cn go to a lonely place
i dn wn stay over here.im suffering every moment nw

LJJ.me n u.cant be a couple.bt be fren is hard for me.im sry
i ask u in everything.bcz i love u.i respect u
when i do it my ways.u jz scold at me.bcz dats nt u wn
its nt i dn hv my own mind set.jz i wn u happy
bt i tink i ask too much.let u become frustrated
n finally end up like dis~
i tink all dis while.i dn undstd u.dats my problem
friday gt ur fren fetch u.i dn noe whos dat.bt careful
our date??i dn noe wad to say bout it...
dis blog slowly had bcome my diary =[ .a half diary

still rmb u was going to gv me a call?
i wait for it.i wish for it.n i never get it
every night im waiting for ur call did u noe dat
y im still waiting for ur call jz nw.i noe it wont happen
u lie to me.u dn gv me a chance to hear it anymore
ur voice.will b most familiar voice in my heart...

29/10 second chapter~

today saturday when ur 1st msg come
i saw it im little bit weird
aft bout 3 or 4 msg.all u replied it short
i ask did u moody or wad
u said ntg say to me
dat time.im disappointed of u
izit we both really ntg to talk...
i start to guess about one thing
when u start to take ur phone
when u return ur phone
am i the 1st person u tink of?
the msg u sent.could it be me?
i guess im nt...frm the msg u send me
i tink the 1st person appear in ur mind
is ur dat 'fren' rite?the one dat jz enter ur world
i tink u msg wif dat 'fren' happier than msg me
eventhough u never told me anything
bt i cn feel dat u gt smtg hiding frm me...
u gt ur fren acc u dats great.my fren

finally.coincidence is 30/10

end of my satuday night
haha.today is 30/10.i wait for today
i was planning go meet u actually
cn hv a look of u n cure my disease
bt i tink right nw n nw onwards
no more dis kind of thinking
will completely forget all of dis
finally...
u say out all the things
we r fren rite now =]
i wont say anything will accept dis decision
jz hope nw onwards everything going well for u
30/10 is halloween day
its also our 3years 4months anniversary
bt i tink.nw is our fall apart day huh
no more anniversary day
tmr oso nt coming cz dn wn let ur fren or teacher ask
ltr ask who am i.dn wn let u hard to ans oso
dis is the last time i message wif u
i tink u treat me as fren ba.i cant do it im sry
when i saw u say bout b ur dad anak angkat
i cant stop my tears frm dropping out
hw could you wn me to accept all dis
u wn me to b ur bro n treat u as my sis
n seeing you everytime.wn me stop my feeling
u wn me how to prevent my feels when see you
its really very suffer for me did u noe all dis?
i tink u never noe all dis...
today is the most awful day for me
drunk at own room.vomit at own room
i hope dis is the last time i make myself like dis
nw onwards.sleep.i tink its nt a easy thing for me
bt alcohol will ruined my body i hope i wont do it agn
red wine is it gud for health?i drink alot of it.and tiger beers
i will rmb hw drunk i m today.dis day...
3smtg aft falling asleep when writing dis blog
aft 3hours.finally i woke myself n continue dis post
woke up vomited so badly.my stomach hurts.1st time ever
my head so dizzy n pain right now
stomach having bad feeling.im so weak
happy halloween to you.jia
as long as u happy.i will very glad oso =]
i wont purposely take off day on sunday agn
i should b making myself busy on sunday
tmr sunday is my off day cn rest actually
bt at the same moment u tell me dis matter
some offer for pc fair tmr ask me to work
i promise for a part time job at pc fair
yea dis will make sure i dn hv time to look at phone
all the best for u.gud luck in working n ur life
i wish u cn happy always nw onwards
jz bcareful in making frens.n ur work place
in my drunk condition.i manage to write so much
haha dis i my 1st time though...
going to sleep back.for my work later
happy halloween huh?happy drinking,cheers =]
goodbye

once awhile

sometime
felt dat am i too determined?
should i let go myself
instead of so determine in smtg
the truth...
always is a cruel thing
hurts without leaving marks
i hope i never noe all dat
always covered by the lies u intent to
knowing ntg is better than now...

today planning to go night market wif frens
so long dint hang out relax myself
so long dint met up my frens too
bt keep raining.canceled finally
aikz.next time hope gt chance ba
keep raining ruin my mood :(

the thing i prevent

dreamed about you again
every night
lying at bed telling myself
i shouldn't dream about wad n wad
bt i still cant do it in my dream
today i cant sleep agn
a dream makes me miss you
i hope u wont c all my thing
bcz none of it dat is dint make u angry
every post of mine jz making u hot
i jz realize hw to face n express my feeling
dis is d way for me to tell my stories
i should make myself busy agn
for no time to think other matters

i feel good~

wednesday
today work place so busy agn
dn noe y so busy oso larh
lazy talk about work
today i feel so good
lazy go to gym for workout today
back home do my workout
1st time at home do hard workout all sweat
feels good bcz lazy go gym bt still cn exercise
dinner ate 3types of food today
going to vomit ady bcz no one to share
shit im gaining my belly fat
so ugly t.t
should do more exercise =]
night blogger

tuesday

today work morning
not busy
nothing special
hv a very full meal for lunch
kinda sleep ady nw
nt enuf sleep
work morning less sleep so much
aikz =[
good night.to the one dat i care
and happy deepavali to indian frens =]

dream

slept till 1something today
its like a so so long dream for me
dream alot of things
its like end of world in my dream
kinda confused woke up time
its time for my work ady
get a bath n went for work.hungry =[
one ppl work agn.kinda boring bt enjoy
enjoy the feeling.no ppl ask me to do thing
i cn do wtv i wn.eventhough many orders
my gastric is going to recover i tink
average time for my meal n medicine effect
tmr work morning cnt sleep yet.grrrrrrr

love one person
no matter she/he love u back or nt
u will still continue love her
bcz when shes happy.smile appear in ur face

23/10 sunday

today early wake myself
n message you.dis whole day
i felt.u ntg to talk wif me anymore
i cn felt dat.im nt the one for u ady
someone at there acc-ing u right?
i tink someone had replaced me
bt i should bless u instead of hate u
hw cn i hate the one dat close to me
if ever im replaced
i wish u cn tell me honestly
i din meant to bcome burden for u
a relationship is consist of two bcome one
when one let go.u cant chase his/her shadow d
be honest to own relationship.dats me
1st time cant go c u.nt even a call frm u dis time
i jz curious.y u mz say thx to me
if is couple.does it really nid to thx each other
somemore is thx for missing another one
i wish u cn dn thx me in anything agn...
sometime something eventhough u knew it
its whether u wn to lie urself n cover the truth
or face it to release urself

today i went for check up my stomach
ans doc's Q n check everything
when doc told me confirm u r suffering gastric
i was so down.hope its cure-able
will consume medicine n take care my stomach
hope ntg serious about dis matter =(
work place kinda relax.yet so boring
alone agn felt so lonely.used of messaging i guess
its going to reach november =]
another sunday..another week..another hope

another saturday

today work finally cn relax abit
cz i work noon today nt so busy
stomach still awhile pain already
tmr mz go c doctor hope nt gastric
ate a warm porridge let me more comfortable
tmr is sunday.1st time dint come
1st time i cant hv a look of u at there
my heart still gt abit weird feeling
bt i dn wn u let ppl ask or say u agn
sry i every night miss ur voice
sry i every day miss u like nobody
sry i cant control myself
tmr mz enjoy over there...

my friday

work place busy like wad agn
wonder all the guest morning dint eat izit
eat so much of food.so busy tiring
aft 3weeks dint do workout
finally today do a hard one
whole leg cramp pain like hell
back very late ady luckily rain stopped
jz nw u call me time
i kinda weird bcz today is friday
thought dis week u nt free dint call
wait for tmr ur msg
bt i like dis calm conversation
heard u said ur coach asking u about me
i tink sunday dint come is nt a bad thing
they ask u who m i sure let u hard to ans
im very tired already
i wn a nice sleep now
my stomach keep pain
going to hv a body check up
i hope its nt gastric
my mom said gastric cant cure.aikz

nt really like today

today im super sleepy
yesterday sleep for 3hours wake for work
work place dn noe y so damn busy
3ppl working bt like 2ppl working
hope all the sweating worth it
pls dn let us down agn dis month point
aft 3 was planning to go for my gym
dint do workout for more than 3 weeks already
bt night gt function ask us to stay back
alright then its ok bt im doing my overtime
y its like dis is wad i should do for u
keep scolding y cant stay longer n help
i nid my rest too ok i work frm 7 till nw
sometime really dn undstd wads chef thinking
slept for 3hours.work for 13hours.no time to eat
my stomach was so pain bt i continue help u too
hope sometime u jz cn undstd our feeling too
back time raining at bike fall asleep agn
reach home i really like to hv something to eat
bt aft bath sitting n fall asleep.really cant hold it
rest for 2hours.woke for my dinner/supper
hope its nt gastric pain whole day
nw its my time to back to sleep
dats my tiring thursday...

爱,真的那么简单吗?

i really cant sleep

listen dis song trough radio

kinda miss dat movie

watch wif u

陶喆 - 爱很简单

moodless

sometime...
i jz nid one person
willing to listen to wad i said
cn let me tell out everything
n i will b very satisfied
bt i cant find dat person
dat question come back agn
where should i go...
if im leaving...
anyone going to ask me to stay?
i very stress at my work place right now
does it worth it for me to stay...
i've lost my direction
i must not let myself rotten
but y is the feeling of enjoy cooking...lost
i nid someone to share wif me
i nid to express out my feeling seriously
i wish january fast abit.3more months to go

nw i noe.y im diff to other guys

my weakness.i cant chg it
slowly scroll back ur blog
saw back ur post our 3years
saw u thx me so much
my tears slowly drop

i nid to sleep

its 1smtg going to reach 2am
5smtg i nid to wake for work ltr
y m i still awake instead of lying on my bed
kinda hard to sleep recently
should i go buy some alcohol??
haha.keep it inside my fridge =p
today i cook hokkien mee
whole pot of soup dat i cook
lunch n dinner eat at least amount of 2ppl
finally stuck inside my stomach.haha
whole day gt thing do wont so boring
today my holiday nt so wasted bcz of cook
next time going to cook agn perhaps =]
bt right now.....
i need to sleep~
if nt tmr going to fall asleep agn...

its monday agn

its my rest day agn =]
aft i awake for 32 hours dint sleep
i sleep for 15hours today
wake time body lie too long abit tired
its kinda hard to fall asleep yesterday
b4 sleep i was thinking about u agn
if dats d end of it.r we still frens?
let dis question vanish.hw gud could dat be...
today i accidentally look back
the cinema movie tickets dat i kept
feels all dat moment is like jz yesterday
laugh together n i still rmb ur reaction in cinema
smiles appear on my face =]
its my off day too tomorrow
going to cook hokkien mee ^^

1month already

yes i do hv many things to tell u
1st...i felt smtg changed deep inside u
n dat is oni u cn feel it urself
u're like suddenly grown up beyond 18
i tink disi is a gud news for u
keep it on bcz you r you
you are not live for anyone

2nd i would like to say my feeling
its kinda blur between u n me
sometime u're warm.bt sometime so cold
i dn noe wad should i do sometime
i dn wn too warm to u n get rejected
bt at same time i cant treat u hardly n mean
nw i find dat i really so in love wif u
u affect my life my everything
nw i start to believe one thing
chef no matter which gender
when u're nt in a gud mood
the food will taste like ur mood

did u noe u ask me y i late sleep early wake
i wish i cn tell u d truth about dis
every night work time im tinking of u
aft work morning i lie cant sleep
fall asleep awhile nia wake myself
i hope i cn stop tinking of u.bt i cant
i cant tell u all dis.bcz i noe u hate it
today when i met u
we dn hv chance to talk oso
did u noe.no matter in ur eye im who
i jz wn a normal talk wif u
a normal n simple talk which end wif laugh
bt we dn hv dat chance
i really hope i cn hv dis chance...
as a frens n hv a chat oso satisfied ady
u at there one month ady
still gt 47 days to go.all the best!

early morning

when i past the seaside in d morning
i saw a beautiful blue sky
i saw a bright sun rising
and a calm sea in front of me
imagine u r right bside me
together enjoy d sea breeze
where as i noe dats kinda impossible
bcz mayb we dn hv dat chance anymore
i start to dn understand much about u
our distance slowly far apart
still rmb b4 dis we cn chat whatever
bt nw...dats jz wad i cn rmb in my mind
ur behaviour start to act upside down
our relation is in d middle of the path
or its going to meet the end
dats d ans im seeking for...

im scared

if i really gt ur call
should i tell u wads in my mind
aft think deeply.im scared actually
bcz i noe if i tell u dat i miss you
u will bcome more pressure
angry me is cant avoid
bt i dn wn to gv u pressure anymore
wad u told me in msg still fresh in my mind
eventhough i really wn to say it
bt i think i cant make it anymore
u at there sure nt so happy sometime
if i say out.jz make u fed up
i saw a quote few days ago
    dn use tears to prove hw much is ur love
    use smile to prove u cn accept sadness
very meaningful words...

ten/ten/eleven

the whole midnite i working
i cant let my mind nt tinking u
if i ever had a chance to talk wif u
i would love to say i miss u badly
no matter hw u react
i jz wn to say out my feeling
i wn to face my feeling...
u went for ns 24days ady
did u really enjoy over there?
hope cn hear more frm u

sunday

y izit so hard to let go of u
dis time u take phone
our on call conversation
was the time u going to return ur phone
n dats oni about 1 minute call
oso bcz angry den close my phone
i tried so hard nt to care about u
i tried so hard to pretend i dn love u
bt the moment i saw u
once agn my heart is attracted by u
i oni cn hear about ur life
trough conversation of u n ur frens
when u returning ur phone
the same feeling like last week happened
wn to care u.bt dn wn u noe i cant let go u
6days is very fast
bt everyday is like never end for me
i hope we cn hv a gud talk...
my love so hard to express for u
no matter wad.all the best for u

im lost

today.i lost myself
no direction.no aim.no point
where is myself?
i mz stop acting like dis
i cn live without u
pls dn like dis ady
u r making urself useless
find back urself
if nt...u will fall deeply inside the hole
and finally cant get out frm it
pls let go...her...urself...
nt her fault or nt gud enuf
jz everything has a past tense

raining

y m i so energized at nite
i wish i cn sleep earlier
sleep till very late oni wake
ntg to think ntg to worry
bt dats impossible
i jz wish i could sleep earlier
so late still dint sleep wad cn i do
today finally take back my prize
so hard to take using bike
tot small oni bt so big hard to take
drive slowly finally i reach home =]
going to sell it out i guess...

im lucky =P

today my hotel doing staff party
so many performance n show to c
bt i on duty today.sad..go up c abit oni
going to finiz work time frens told me
hey gratz u get picked for lucky draw
i tot joking oni bt its true aft i reconfirmed
so lucky eventhough nt expensive things
bt still im lucky today ^^

a person mood
will it affect the taste of food?
i felt.yes it is...kii dn so down ok!!!

tired~

today is nine emperor god festival
vegetarian one day.cant used to it...
aft lunch went to pray ady
went to 3places =P
pray more nothing wrong right =]
3rd place is parade i walk till finish
kinda tired.bt i hope my wish come true
wish everything will going fine n safe

when cn i stop dreaming of u...
i dn wn awake n telling myself
wad i should do n wad i shouldn't
i was waiting for ur call esp today...
mayb bcz i told u i wed rest day
10 slowly past 11 phone still nt ringing
thought today u nt calling
bt 11 smtg i saw ur number
we hv a short talk cz its late ady
u asked.y im waiting for ur call
wad is the ans u want frm me
i cant tell u the truth
sry i tried my best ady
i dn noe y im waiting for ur call oso
i jz cn ans u im nt waiting for u
i tink i really mz nt wait ur call agn
nw onwards.i hope i cn...

yelling~

today work one ppl
so boring no one cn chat
so many things to do
suddenly order come
finiz one.another came.same food
so fed up.finally yelled out
wn to do my things oso hard
stuck wif d orders
yelled out.i feels better.everythings out
my pressure.unhappy stuff.n problems
tmr is nine emperor festival n my rest day
should go n hv a pray for blessing

all the best.oh chin chong
no matter wad.you must do it

no title

y today i so boring
aikz
nothing to do
i must try to get used to it nw
its gud for my future
should try to find smtg to do...
sleep till very late dn wn to wake
wake ady ntg to do wait for work
today finally i get my protein
should start aft my vegetarian day

wish cn get a cure for missing u ♥

rainy~

yeeehaaaaa.its sunday ady
morning rain so heavy all the way
paiseh still same i make u so pek chek
today i dn dare to talk to you oso
c u so angry at there ltr i say wrong thing
bt another side of me told myself
is i dn wn talk cz u so busy wif frens
i noe u gt ur own guys frens
i wont ask about ur frens in camp
as long as u noe careful in everything.cn ady

why today u gv phone for them keep time
i so down so down...dn noe y
aft work so damn miss you
did i lack of anything forgot tell u at call?
miss u so much
dis few days raining.take care~
wait u for 6more days.love you

shopping~

today aft work went to qb buy things
aft dat go to gama supermarket
today is member's day n promotion day
i bought so many things eventhough one ppl
shop for 5hours today...
first time one ppl shopping buy so many
kinda weird for me.n dats another day...

sorry i still making you so pek chek
i dn noe why or what am i doing
jz cant stop doing wrong things
dn noe y i dn dare to say happy anni to u
mayb dn wn to make u headache
dn wn u always tinking about dis
I L Y ♥

Y O U

saw ur number appeared i cheer up agn
dint expect u will call me today =]
dis call let me more determined
decided i should really go out there work..
mayb i really too rely on you
i noe u dn like i b dis type of person
i noe rite nw my job is nt a satisfied job
i noe go out there is gud for my future
bt i jz cant let go u.i nt really scare being single
i jz scare sometime u at here nid someone
if u gt ur own problem n nid to release
i jz hope i cn b there to share ur sadness
i never told u.bcz i dn dare to do so
of cz u gt ur frens too.is it i over worried?
bt today dis call let me noe.i shouldn't like dis
thx for ur pushing n wad u said
ur encouragement is wad i nid i guess...
i've decided.i gt my final decision
i wont hesitate anymore.n wont regret
thank you.i really appreciate it ♥

did u noe today is wad day?
its another 30th day of the month
without noticing...its already 3years 3months
anyway,wish u cn happy always jia ♥

thursday

2pm ady
y still cant sleep
wake n blogging
two more days to go...
one more night to go...
my phone going to reborn
so tired lately
wait rest day sleep 12 hours =]
its last day of dis month
30th...

rusting~

arghhhhhhhhh
rust ady larh my body
din go gym workout so long ady
kinda tired recently
late sleep early wake
nid to recover my energy
tmr mz go workout d!!
gud nite.everyone

monday

today raining for whole day
its very cold even dint open fan
my rest day i jz sit at home listen to song
raining no mood go out also
bt when my phone start ringing
i rush to answer.n i hear ur voice ♥
im fully energized.very happy to hear it
we hv a very nice talk.i miss you
climax of my day.i tot going to boring whole day
dis few days is nine emperor gods festival
going to rain very often
at there u must take care urself dn fall sick
mz sleep earlier today.tmr 6 mz wake d.tired =(

i dn wn to b a selfish person
i nid to tink frm ur view of point
i will seriously make it wad i told u
no matter hw hard i will do it
aft 3 months...

im satisfied

dis morning
bcz of sunday dat im waiting...
im sleepy,im tired,im exhausted,im starving
bt when i saw u.im relieved
relieved dat u can used to it
knowing more friends at there
n slowly forget about tinking back home
dis is another life for u to b independent...
by knowing much about ur life at there
through ur friends,n ur story to ur parents
all dis is a small matter dat i hear carefully
n manage to make me nt so worry about u
its family day for parents.of cz is family talks
i will quietly wishing u all the best in my heart
pls bcareful.n b more alert.nt everything so easy as u c
i hope u will noe i wn ur safety number 1
im satisfied.cn see u once per week
see u after one more week.all the best!

confused yet so obvious

finally u get back ur phone n msg me
im very happy to c ur message
far away frm here.did u felt dat too?
but whole day messaging wif u
i felt there're smtg changed inside u
izit dis is jz a wrong feeling of mine
or dats changes of u in dis 6days...
or recently...?

at night...at last i knew wads our relation
i tink i noe wad to do aft 3months
love is to c another part of u blessed n happy
pls dn ask me whether u changed or not
i dn noe wad should i ans you
as long as u get wad u wn.i feel worth it
sometime its very hard to predict unpredictable

cant sleep blogging is nt a bad idea
another moment of my life

can i make it...

i told myself to be mean
i told myself to be tougher
bt can i make it?
y m i so weak...
love...
brings u into happiness
but comes along depressed
being mean n cold
jz hurting urself...

in the middle of the night

in dis middle of the dark nite
its my time to update blog agn
guess wad...its my rest day..
dn noe y i can sleep till 2pm so late
ntg special to do...went out find frens
drop at qbm station one cafe n chatting there
another day wif frens spending my time chat
3ppls bt lots of topic n lots of laughter
i tink dis is wad im seeking...laughter
7smtg reached home...sit eat sit pc
dats my day....

ps...from time to time
i still keep looking at my phone for any notification

a better day

morning wake n went for an hour gym workout
few days never do workout d.kinda rusty
aft a hard workout went for work
aft work sit over there n hv a chat wif fren
its kinda gud feeling for me...
say whatever we want.laugh whenever we want
friends talk is a way for me not to focus in another thing
anyway dis is a better day for me...

that familiar voice ♥

was sleeping aft a morning tired work
a call woke me up.an unknown number
answered...its the most familiar voice for me
dint hear dis voice for 3days long already
thanks for calling me up...
althought its a 2minutes long
bt i appreciate it.i never thought u will...
for some reason.i wasn't in a good mood
aft accidentally saw something...
i really shouldn't so curious about it
dint get a gud sleep lately.insomnia.tiring
now,should i be more initiative..let go......

easy going

its my rest day today
sleep till 12 something
suddenly call come ask me go work
cz friend mc no one working
ready up n go to work d
nt so busy at work kinda relax today
at least today can let me busy all day long
not free for some thinking dats good for me =]

ps..i still not used to it....

18/9

finally.....
sunday has come...its time for u alone
u really nid to finiz ur ns for dis 3months
im glad today cn meet u.n gv u wad u need
for the next 6days.my phone is mute...
no one will message me also eh
keep raining really let me miss u jia
i hope u cn do well over there
im waiting for ur message aft 6days
dn forget to cover blanket at night...
i love you

17/9

i dn remember hw long i dint update my blog d
all i noe is very long...
today is your leaving n going to ns
i fetch u go there n say goodbye to u.nt much talking
but inside myself.there're lots i wn to tell u
i will done wad i can to help u d
the day before.i was moodless.for no reason
we less chat recently.all because of me
did u noe i acc u go take the letter for ns
dat moment i think so hard hw to avoid dis
dat moment i was so hard to accept 11/9 is d day
finally we cn suspend for one more week
aft i back i came to fetch u for some procedure
n i dint sleep whole day riding bike fall asleep
jz to acc u for medical check up
bcz i jz wn to cherish all d moment b4 u go
no matter hw hard.1second wif u means alot for me
dis whole week i tried so hard to ignore u
i hope u cn feel dat im bad so dat wont miss me
monday we go out.is d most awful day for me
i wish i cn hug u tight.i dn wn u go actually
bt i choose to be cold.dn wn to talk wif u
bt inside my heart u wont noe my feeling
i hope i make a right decision.for ur own good...
hws ur 1st night over there?
sleep well?turning over and over?cn u used to it?
i hope u cn learn much in ns.u nid to independent
all the best.u cn do it!

monday

its monday agn
my date wif her
today went to gp
watch 'Mr.popper's penguin'
very funny =]
aft dat we go eat kenny rogers
the muffin taste nt so nice lorh
drop standard
nice day ♥

my moment

30th june 2011
we both together 3years already today
everytime hang out with you
i will very happy and enjoy it
i hope you got the same feeling like me
now both of us got to work hard for our dream
i wish everything goes well ya
dis year i dint do anything special oso
as long u like it im very happy already
happy anniversary my love

long time dint update my blog
part of the reason is bcz of work
although its tiring.bt i must not give up
hope i cn do better in everything
every week at least cn out wif her once
i cn relax my mind n enjoy wif her
its like letting out my pressure
sometime u jz nid someone wif u
then you will forget every pressure u having

JULY...
4th
straight quay hv our lunch
1st time went to the charcoal bbq n steamboat..DING
very nice food and many choices of food
mayb its weekday nt much ppl hang over there
enjoyed my meal wif her
watched transformers..i missed 2nd epi =[
will go n buy back.love optimus prime you r cool =D
enjoyed my day

my birthday~

dint do anything big to celebrate
i jz hang out wif my girl
today we went to gp
bt b4 dat we take d present she make for me
thank you very much i love it girl
aft reach gp around 3pm ady.hungry
go sushi king.1st time go sushi king eat =D
eat so many so full cz all very nice
1st time go there eat
aft having our lunch we hv a walk around
ntg to do so we headed to straight quay
took some pic n relax over there so nice
9pm felt so boring so we go qb watch movie
someone sell us ticket cz they dn wn ady.haha
1st time experience buy frm other ppl
watch fast n furious 5
damn nice all the cars.nt going to own dat =[
finiz movie we back ady lorh

today i was enjoy gt her celebrate wif me
its very simple yet meaningful for me
wish everything goes well in my life~

7th n 8th april

wao...
nw oni i knew dat i've two months din update blog
so long wonder i too busy or lazy to blog??
i tink should update my blog d =]
29th march i met into an accident
its a collision between my bike n a myvi
its d aunty fault.turn at one way road d crash
end up my bike front like a piece of junk...doomed
3stitches beside eye.big bruises on leg n shoulder
luckily nt much serious injuries n no car
thank god...mc for 8days...rest at home

dis time i will blog agn cz very long dint so enjoy
7th...aft work i go out wif my girl
today we go gp rb cz very long din go ady
frm 5 to 9 we sing till tired d xDDD
hv their buffet dinner at there
d every moment wif her was so enjoyable for me
we laf together sing together like mad ppl
very long din c her so happy ady we enjoy it
aft dat back ady lorh

8th its d same aft work we go out lorh
we watch movie we waiting.the ghost must be crazy
so long oni shown at msia since jan at sgpore till nw
headed to 1st avenue...
very funny movie bt met 3stupid bhind our seat
keep kick our seat like no one sitting in front
scolded them bt pretend like ntg happen.stupid!!
aft movie we eat bak kut teh at master Q..yummm
today early abit back bt i still hv a gud time wif her
very grateful i gt her in my life
mayb its fated for me to met her in my life
i appreciate her..
bcz i love her more than any1 cn imagine

n my fren is going to canada for pilot course
all the best for him.i know he'll done it well
bcz its his dream flying high beyond the sky
aft 18months i will see him in uniform
all the best bro

random

recently no time write blog
din update so long le lorh
cny working dint go out oso
bt nw free cz taking leave lorh
din write blog dis period
many happy things oso lorh
1st avenue tgv opened ady very nice ya
enjoy 2days over there very nice oso
yesterday is valentine's day
a very normal bt sweet day wif her ♥
we enjoyed our dinner at ingolf's kneipe
sweet valentine's dinner at there
very delighful meal n gt fun too
i cant eat sour stuff im scared of it
wonder y my dessert full of straberries
n she force me to eat 4 at a time...4!?!?
finally i end up ugly face n no eye -.-
bt enjoy dat moment wif her
hope she will like the rose for her
first time go out on valentine wif her
my lovely girl
♥ ♥ ♥ 1437 ♥ ♥ ♥

past...

22nd jan
today is her birthday
thx for giving me chance to celebrate for u
i've done my best hope u will really like it
although i do make u angry for some reason
n about d cake which failed to show out nicely
sorry about dat hope my second cake save back
none of my surprise work out i think
kinda failure cause so many obstacles =[
enjoy today wif u hope ur 18th never wasted

31st jan
last day of jan feb coming d
today went out wif her watch movie SHAOLIN
very nice movie go n watch ya gt chance
we also go to shopping for new year clothes
two of us bought shirts lorh =]
enjoyed today n you're gorgeous today
jz gt a feeling dn noe hw to explain dat
and we're 31months together d
hope still gt u wif me all d way ya
i love you

13/1
today we go out qb watch new movie
reach qb 1st thing is go eat
so hungry both of us
go kim gary eat long time dint go d
eat till very full lorh at ther

aft dat oni go for our movie time
GREAT DAY
i never watch 1st episode
dis is 2nd episode lorh
very nice got funny n touching part
moral value is appreciate parents too
very nice movie all mz go watch ya

finiz movie we went to station 1 cafe
go for a drinks n online over ther xDD
enjoy the day wif her
sry for the thing i dont noe make u angry
bt i will learn n do for u d


16/1
today aft work go find my ex chef for chat
wif my two friends at hotel eh
taught me alots of thing my chef
bt too bad he resign ady i cant learn anymore
no choice mayb i really no luck dis time
28th another oso resign ady
dat time dn noe who cn teach me things
jz tink of learning more things lorh
bt no one cn teach me work for wad
aikz...
no choice hope nw cn fast learn ba...

6/1

today went to qb wif her
we watched paranormal activity 2
its written true story over ther
bt i dn noe whether its true
nt dn believe jz feel dat its scary
dis movie really cn scare u out
really gt the scary part to scare u
make u get shocked too.nice movie

aft finiz our movie
finding a place for dinner
we go to a steamboat shop
tsurukame shabu shabu
japanese steamboat restaurant
omg i damn love the pork slice
i think its bacon or smtg
the thin slice of meat n the fat
taste so damn well for me
i ate so many plate of dat
we enjoyed our meal at there
and they gt a free wifi too =]

finiz our dinner hv a walk
n stop by at jCO
hv a drinks i love it too
n dats my day wif her.happy day

1st blog of d year.happy new year!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!~
wish all my friends gud luck in 2011
dis year my new year eve nt like christmas eve
dint go through alone n under rain
i gt my girl wif me go out today =)

morning 6am wake for work till 3pm
den ready all go fetch girl go out ady.GP
we going to redbox to sing n book 5pm
bt traffic so jam stuck there like wad
n raining luckily using car.safe
reach time 5smtg going to reach 6
go in sing n hv dinner over ther till 9
den we heading to STRAIGHT QUAYS

its a high class hotel but still building nw
opened some part for dis countdown
it was nice over there n there is countdown concert
nt so many ppl at 1st.bt past 11 the place crowded d
n so we slowly wait for the countdown moment
kinda boring.finally all gather around stage
n so do both of us =)
12.59am...all countdown 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1
HAPPY NEW YEAR......booooom.the fireworks started
so so nice n so long more than 5minutes
n dats d end of 2010.beginnins of 2011

finised d fireworks,concert continue wif DJ on stage
we jz sat on one of the table n ordered drinks
2011 first second past 12am.im wif my girl
im grateful gt her beside me.so enjoy
wont forget today.our second new year eve countdown
on the way back the road is still very jam
reach my home at 2.30.6am mz wake up for work
i so enjoy today bcz my new year eve went well
hope every year still the same person =D

morning damn tired.slept 3hours.woke up went to work
so sleepy luckily got my kopi O.let me open my eye
dats my new year eve.end of my story for 2010